no conclusion!!

today principle called me.. just to clear everything.. about why am i being selected.. why the new teacher was taken.. and also what will happen next.. still, there is no conclusion on my status.. whether i am staying or leaving.. it depends.. the probabilities are:

1) i may be transfered to school nearby..

2) i may be staying in smksbs, replacing miss zarina ( who is sick at the moment).. so, that means that i'll be teaching bm after this (i'm dead!! ;( )

3) i might be unemployed?


its all depend on the letter from the jpwp.. hmm.. the only thing that confirmed now is that i wont be teaching math anymore.. that is sad as i looooove math so much.. huhu

so i guess all i have to do now is just wait and see..

hari yg sedih!!!

yesterday was the saddest day ever.. i found out that this is my last week in the school.. it really breaks my heart.. i just can't believe it.. i thought dat i would be staying here till at least till the end of this year.. but, who knows?? i have no choice other than accepting the fate..





all of my students asked me..


" why teacher must leave?? "


"don't u love us anymore??"





i feel like wanna scream to tell them how much i love them.. i really do.. its hard for me to acctually leave u.. seriously i'm not ready for goodbye..





my frens asked me, why did u cry so much.. its just a job.. its not like u cant see ur students anymore..


they just dont understand.. being a teacher is really a big thing for me.. for once in my life, i feel important.. feel needed and somehow loved.. its a feeling i never experience before.. teaching is not just a job for me.. its my life.. and i am very proud of it..





i could not cry anymore.. its like my tears were dried.. maybe i seem to be "feelingless" on the outside, but believe me i cry on the inside.. i really don't know what made me loved my students soo much.. its not that they were all excellent students.. most of them were just normal, hyperactive.. talkative.. very lazy and sleepy in my class.. hmm.. maybe they reminded me to myself?? haha..



to my dear students, please apologize me for all my mistakes.. wrong lesson?? bad english... but not for the mountains of homework i gave u.. haha.. if i ever scolded u, remember its not because i hate u.. but just to make u realize how bright ur future is.. and not to forget, thank you for the experiences u gave me.. for all the stories we shared, the gossips.. ;p.. the love and care u showed me.. do cooperate with your new teacher, en amir.. and lastly, try to get good result fir your final and make me proud.. love u all, and do keep in touch!!

takoot!!

dear beloved students.. if you happens to found my blog,please dont judge me by my writing.. i am just normal human being.. hahaha..

friday??

x saba nye menanti petang.. now da ade new routine for every friday nite.. three single but not really available ppl akan hangout.. hahaha.. acctually bukan wat pe pon.. just chatting.. EATING.. n sometimes movies.. simple but yet very relaxing.. free from all stress.. haha..

so far da three times kot lepak with dolly and our new fren alan.. yg tahan, siap wat agreement.. whoever among the three of us yg cancel our friday hangout will be fined.. dat is a dinner treat for the next hangout.. hahaha.. hopefully I will be available everytime.. I'm broke.. huhu

MTeST and dinner kresma

Smalam, 28th march sy telah menduduki exam MTeST, exam utk masuk perguruan aka KPLI.. the exam was better than the PTD exam I attend b4.. tapi ade 1 section which is the analytical section was quite challenging.. simple but really confusing.. huhu.. hopefully i’ll made it.. amiiin..

Later, I went to S.A.. as usual.. my feveret weekend activity.. this time to attend KRESMA dinner n family day.. huhu.. dolly xde, sanggup tu naik komuter.. hahaha.. by the time sy smpai ke s.a, sy pon berpikir2 sape yg sy nk susahkan.. slalu mntak tlg fit si gaban, this time saje tukar angin plak.. sy pon call r iwan.. the dialogues are as written below.. ahaks

“hello iwan kat ne ni?”
“iwan kat umah.. nape?”
“oo.. hmm.. bule x tolong amek dayat?”
“amek dayat? Iwan kat s.alam la ni”
“yela.. dayat kat s.alam r ni.. kat ktm pdg jawa la. Iwan ingat dayat kat cheras ke?? Iwan nk g amek dayat kat cheras ke?? Gile r.. ingat dayat ni kejam sgt ke?? Haha”
“tula.. ingat kat cheras.. baru nk ajak sape2 sbb x ingat jalan”

Cam tu la dialog nye lebey kurang.. sungguh baik hati mamat sorg tu.. haha.. nway the dinner was ok.. I ate like tuuut.. byk gile mkn.. xbergambar sgt pon sbb nk menghabiskan makanan tuh.. all for the sake of getting suami soleh.. hahha..

27 mac

Agak lame sy menyepikan diri.. nk kate bz, x la sgt.. tp sy lebey suke men game dr memblogkan diri lately... game is a way for me to release stress.. huhu..

Pg td kat skool lib sje2 la bace reader digest (bto ke eja ni??).. 25 ways to happiness.. some yg sy bule recall are 1) changing ur mind set, as if be happy with urself, 2)live today as if u’ll die tomorrow, 3) smile!! And lastly keep a daily journal.. write everything dat happened dat day.. small2 things dat makes u happy.. n even things dat make u unhappy dat day.. this will at least lighten the burden u carry.. dis is dat makes me wanna keep a daily journal of mine.. haha

Seriously, there’s always something happened to me everyday dat really makes me happy.. mostly came from my students.. they always teased me, asking me very personal stuff.. eg, my type of man.. boyfriend(mcm la ade kan??).. even my friends x pernah tanye mnde2 cam ni.. isk2.. malu2 sy tau..

Nway, dolly mesti da smpai aussie by now.. already miss her.. the one dat i share my almost everything.. huhu.. xpe2.. dolly kamu njoy ok?? N ready kan telinga kamu sbb sy akan smpan stok cerita for 10 days.. huhu.. have a safe journey..

guru oh guru...

sudah lame x menjengah ke blog ku ini.. bz la katekan.. well..sy da keje skang ni.. da sebulan gaklaa..muahaha.. but only as tempopary teacher.. seriously x expect akan dpt this job.. sesaje je g interbiew last month.. bajet2 x lepas la interview tu.. tup2,no interview dat day.. so, ngan senangnye sy dpt keje ni.. alhamdulillah...

1st week keje.. life is soo miserable.. sy disuruh ajar math n MORAL.. moral yea kengkawan.. mule2 rs wah. adekah terpancar sinar kemoralan aku ini?? them skang blesah je laa.. even slalu kene kutuk, sy x kesah~.. lantak korang laa.. sure sbb jeles ngan sy.. hahaha.. mule2 cm bz gile.. manyak mnde yg x complete.. seriously rs nk quit.. luckly allah help me..

now, everything is ok.. great acctually.. feells like my life is more complete.. n most important thing sy rs sy da berjasa?? hahahaha.. ape2la.. sy berazam utk stay with job this whole year.. kalo bule jd permanent lg bagus.. haha..