no conclusion!!

today principle called me.. just to clear everything.. about why am i being selected.. why the new teacher was taken.. and also what will happen next.. still, there is no conclusion on my status.. whether i am staying or leaving.. it depends.. the probabilities are:

1) i may be transfered to school nearby..

2) i may be staying in smksbs, replacing miss zarina ( who is sick at the moment).. so, that means that i'll be teaching bm after this (i'm dead!! ;( )

3) i might be unemployed?


its all depend on the letter from the jpwp.. hmm.. the only thing that confirmed now is that i wont be teaching math anymore.. that is sad as i looooove math so much.. huhu

so i guess all i have to do now is just wait and see..

hari yg sedih!!!

yesterday was the saddest day ever.. i found out that this is my last week in the school.. it really breaks my heart.. i just can't believe it.. i thought dat i would be staying here till at least till the end of this year.. but, who knows?? i have no choice other than accepting the fate..





all of my students asked me..


" why teacher must leave?? "


"don't u love us anymore??"





i feel like wanna scream to tell them how much i love them.. i really do.. its hard for me to acctually leave u.. seriously i'm not ready for goodbye..





my frens asked me, why did u cry so much.. its just a job.. its not like u cant see ur students anymore..


they just dont understand.. being a teacher is really a big thing for me.. for once in my life, i feel important.. feel needed and somehow loved.. its a feeling i never experience before.. teaching is not just a job for me.. its my life.. and i am very proud of it..





i could not cry anymore.. its like my tears were dried.. maybe i seem to be "feelingless" on the outside, but believe me i cry on the inside.. i really don't know what made me loved my students soo much.. its not that they were all excellent students.. most of them were just normal, hyperactive.. talkative.. very lazy and sleepy in my class.. hmm.. maybe they reminded me to myself?? haha..



to my dear students, please apologize me for all my mistakes.. wrong lesson?? bad english... but not for the mountains of homework i gave u.. haha.. if i ever scolded u, remember its not because i hate u.. but just to make u realize how bright ur future is.. and not to forget, thank you for the experiences u gave me.. for all the stories we shared, the gossips.. ;p.. the love and care u showed me.. do cooperate with your new teacher, en amir.. and lastly, try to get good result fir your final and make me proud.. love u all, and do keep in touch!!